I'm the Problem with Kids today

Blah blah blah I suck and my life sucks. Nothing is going the way I want it to, but shouldn’t I be used to that by now? When has life ever dealt me a decent hand? But so I complain? No…I just go on getting dirt kicked in my face, pretending the entire time like I’m a sane level minded individual. I don’t know why I’m complaining, I suppose this is the average human state. Not to mention there are so many people in this world that have it soo much worse than I could possibly imagine, and yet I continue to find myself bitching about how “nobody loves me” or “I’m ugly.” I really can’t stand my selfishness sometimes. My self loathing only perpetuates further self loathing, like a wild out of control tailspin at an airshow, where everybody is watching it happen, but they’re entirely oblivious because they think its just part of the show. The fact of the matter is, I can’t stand who I am. I don’t see how anybody could. But, I guess I would rather have this life than none. Anyways, I guess I just needed to rant some…be an emo kid for ten minutes. Truth be told, it kind of made me feel a little better, despite nobody reading this ever (except maybe my ex, but that’s doubtful, n even if she does, its probably nothing she hasn’t heard me whine about before.) Anyways, I’m off to continue my less than optimal lifestyle and attempt to be content with mediocrity.

I would just like to let you all know that I won’t be treating this as a straight up blog thing. Unfortunately at the moment I don’t have internet and I’m only able to do so much from my phone. Also I wanted to give you all a chance to get to know me. I’ll be more active eventually. Fair warning people. Fair warning.

“Annually, the amount of garbage that is dumped in the world’s oceans is three times the weight of fish that is caught from the oceans.” Doesn’t it make you so proud to be part of the human race when you see things like this? It’s incredible how little most people care about the planet and the other animals that live here. I have no point to make. I just saw this and was angered by it.

Well I’m about to go to bed, and I realized that I seem to have missed a few key points in my first post. First off, the whole Izze thing is essentially my female half. I recently became aware that I kind of like to cross dress thanks to the most awesome person I know. Speaking of this awesome person, she has helped me become a better person in so many ways. We are kiiind of dating at the moment (well, It’s kind of complicated, but that’s essentially what it boils down to) and so far it seems to be working out. We have a lot in common and she puts up with my weird, random, and oftentimes annoying attributes. All in all, the only thing that could really be better in my life at the moment would be a better job. But hey, can’t win em all. Oh, I’m also a vegetarian and sort of a taker nerd, although recently I haven’t played very much. I enjoy punk rock and ska very much, although I generally don’t hate most types of music. Um, I think that about wraps up my summation of my life at the moment. Take care and enjoy life.

Well, this is my first post. I’m really not entirely sure what to say, so I guess I’ll talk a little about who I am. My name is Nick (or Izze depending on the day, but more about that later) I’m 20 years old and currently not in school despite wanting to be. My interests are very scattered, varying from watching movies of all types (predominately comedies that require very little thought) to studying random and often times useless knowledge, to furthering the equality of everyone of every race, gender, sexual orientation, creed, and culture. I often felt like an outcast growing up and had little idea why. However, I’ve recently discovered a number of possible reasons for this. But whether It’s my acute affinity for cross dressing, my somewhat queer sexual preference, my choice in clothing, my musical interests, or my general lack of tact in a wide variety of social situations, I have decided I don’t need an excuse to be me. I don’t demand acceptance, I don’t require attention, I don’t thrive on popularity. Anyways, I hope this helps you get to know me. I’ll post more when I figure out how this all works, and it’ll probably help to get my internet back so I don’t have to depend entirely on my phone. I’ll be seeing you around.